The Mastery of it All~

Water draws me in like an old lover.  Whispering sweet everythings to me.  Enticing me inside every drop, while gathering thoughts of yesterday and this moment.  Dreamstate becomes a part of every breath.  All my problems drift away in the current and there I am left for a bountiful renewal.
 
Baptism of sorts.  Cleansing away the monkey brain and allowing me to just be.  Why is that important?  Because I'm tired of being a fool and being fooled.  Of people hurting each other over and over for reasons that make no sense.  I've lost so much that there are to many moments where I wonder if I'll ever be found again.  I feel like God put love in my life only to tease me with it.  I watched the faces of my parents as they died and then my sister which was all to soon.  Loosing all this love to find what?  Self love?  Self preservation?  Well, I'm not good at alone.  I don't do it well.  And when my eyes meet the water, when my heart feels the vibration of the flow, I'm so close to heaven that I feel them all as if they were standing there with me again.  My lover looking into my eyes.  My Father, larger than life smiling at me.  My Mother's grace and softness soothing me.  And the most loyal and committed love from my sister.  
That's why I love any body of water so much...it's me...getting to be with them all again...in my little piece of heaven..xo