Beautiful Disaster

Sometime the monsters in my head
Get the better of me
I'm not alright
When I am battling  
My own mind
And sometimes they win
Even though I fight my best
Maybe it's all in my head
I just don't know
Maybe I should just try harder
Most would say  
You choose your own wars
But I think mine  
Choose me most nights
So here I am
Stuck
Between psycho and sanity
Tearing at my flesh
My mind is  
Full of chaos
I guess that's just who I am
So I am not going to run and hide
I know I am still alive  
Because I can feel
The fight inside  
It's beating in my chest
I know I'm a mess
A Beautiful disaster