Dear Painkiller©

If I could bottle up the feeling of you on my skin I would give up on all of my vices  
yes including the weed  
because you're the only drug that could ever get me high enough to remember what I felt like outside of this body!  
My quick fix
My Acetaminophen  
I feen more of my Morphine and for once I get to taste self worth  
and god  
and free  
and joy.  
I'm HOOKED!  
and to kick this habit would require me to jeopardize my hope for more.
for better.
My faith
in we  
in us
in Yah
in all that's good in the world.  
I want to forever overdose on your smile.  
Your warmth.
Your light.
I want to shoot your love in my veins
and I don't want to feel a damn thing else that isn't this feeling you give me deep down in the pit of my stomach when you tell me you got me and I believe you and trust that.  
That feeling that heats my body like I just got caught in lie but it's fear because I need you and you know that so I'm sitting here sweating like I just popped a Molly and giggle because I'm sober as fuck.
 
Sylvia Perry 2015©