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My Ill
Coping without scars to body
instead I survive by finding ways
to let out the inner pain
in the ways that do not harm
(this is lie I tell myself)
when the marks do appear
the expression is made gay
laughing jester on the stage
ahead of the curtain hiding all
(purposely done to conceal)
the dislike of the world
angst of the fallen state incurred
by the holiest with the taint
that I’d run from at my worse
(so I don’t wonder)
turned to judge my own mind
reflection of my own kind
wishing I had the scars
to warn the world of my ill.
© 2017, Sean Green. All Rights Reserved. 20170326.
A friend posted a meme that stated, “The boys I have as friends are the reasons why I don’t trust boys”. This really struck me, and I held back stating that I feel the same, but towards the world as a whole. This, and influence from watching certain YouTube videos, led me to write “My Ill”.
instead I survive by finding ways
to let out the inner pain
in the ways that do not harm
(this is lie I tell myself)
when the marks do appear
the expression is made gay
laughing jester on the stage
ahead of the curtain hiding all
(purposely done to conceal)
the dislike of the world
angst of the fallen state incurred
by the holiest with the taint
that I’d run from at my worse
(so I don’t wonder)
turned to judge my own mind
reflection of my own kind
wishing I had the scars
to warn the world of my ill.
© 2017, Sean Green. All Rights Reserved. 20170326.
A friend posted a meme that stated, “The boys I have as friends are the reasons why I don’t trust boys”. This really struck me, and I held back stating that I feel the same, but towards the world as a whole. This, and influence from watching certain YouTube videos, led me to write “My Ill”.
Published 26th Mar 2017
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Anonymous
31st Mar 2017 10:45am
Unlike anything else, this grazed against my bone and heart
5th Apr 2017 10:28am
Thank you! If an aim of poetry is to connect, I am honored you felt he message.
Anonymous
- Edited 5th Apr 2017 5:09am
5th Apr 2017 5:08am
I swear at times suns and I got the same wave length...this is profound exposure in the raw
5th Apr 2017 10:27am
I was having "one of the those days" stress-wise. My poetry seems bi-polar, swinging between extreme highs and lows.
