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Staring at space, ear phones plugged in the dark.
Waiting for something as simple as a little spark.
I am aglow in the dark, thinking of everything that I want and need.
Sending location signals every second to the vultures that fly and feed.

But I cannot run, and I most certainly cannot hide.
From them and from what I think and feel inside.
I really tried changing a bit, but my efforts were & still are in vain.
Everything that took place this year.. Next Year will be the same.

I had a dream though just a dream, it opened my eyes to the truth.
Now I'm just stewing in my own thoughts, I can't handle that truth.
But fortunately, for a pessimist, I'm pretty optimistic.
So before December ends this will blow over real quick.

A little will stick but I'll scrape that gum off my shoe.
To get to where I wanna be, I know exactly what I need to do.
And I will do it, even if I do not want to.
I've already made up my mind, I hope that they have too.
 
In a few days I will be heading out.
I'll use the day long journey to figure the rest out.
Use it to focus despite the noise and shouts and erase any pending doubt.

Day by day my confidence keeps swelling, my old self keeps shrinking..
Away into nothingness like a ship sinking..
Deep into the darkness of the sea, reminds me of what surrounds me.
Now there's that spark I've been waiting for...yet here I lie still thinking...