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Diagnosis to No One

 

Where do I even begin

Well today
Was a bad one

      And something snapped

With an anvil of medical records
Above my skull
I bowed to their demands

Said it could be nothing
That maybe its my own voice
Maybe i'm just wanting to be sick-
--
Ill destory anything and everything
I have so many dreams of killing myself

With a knife to my throat
Or my stomach
         It would be so gory and bloody
Oh and the smell of it all- like wet metal, a rust

With an unlock button and no seatbelt
On a highway  of 70
     Just open the door

Off a grain elevator
Into a dive- to a beautiful  bed of cement
                            Dead the second I hit the pavement

With a razor
Cutting off motion in my hand

I used to suffocate myself so I could sleep at night
        Now those were the days  
--
The cure is to stay positive.
I've never seen such an insult

But something snapped today
It sounded like the collapse of my world
     I bet my spine would sound just like that

Nothing's wrong with me
Only of course....my skin crawls with wanting to hurt myself
     now it burns with little excitment

As the wounds now bleed across my stomach with a blank of why...
"You did this"
In bloody sharp letters

I can't wait to die
I can't wait
I can't

     I simply can't wait

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