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Insecurity

I have not
Done what you expected
of me
and for that I
A p o l o g i s e

My apologies are
empty epithanies

Your eyes scream pain

When I last saw you
2 years ago now
You came to greet me
my grandmother's house
was our secret getaway

I said nothing
Eyes glued to my phone
trying to contact the man I
loved then.

& I walked away
having smoked a cigarette
Knowing you hated it
Knowing you hated me

Forever?
You said 'Forever'


& my God
I thought I'd
love you for always

Move to your town
have your children
but I didn't like the notion
of competition,
I didn't want to fight
for attention.

I was too old then
I'm too old now

My body is a temple
The Flames of your tongue
never got to worship

My thighs the gateway
to some sort of sordid paradise
which hold 'I love you's' a little
too close.

You never asked
to explore that gateway

And I
was too young
when we met
to care about
how your eyes danced
to their own melody
drinking in the entity
of my skin.

You held me
taught me how
to love with innocence

Taught my heart
how to swim with
sharks.

Without telling me
they liked the scent
of scarlet blood.
Written by Undivided_Praxis
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