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The Devil Be Damned
let ashes rain down upon my head
I'm in the land of pain
anxiety is a killer
a cunt I can't live with
I've tried to kill her
eating pills & drinking
drug cocktails
mix it & put the devil to bed
just to have her come for my throat
the next day
I can't even write when I feel like this
though I press on
because if I stop now
my demons will eat me alive
do you feel me?
jumping off the page
in a panic
stark & raw
click go my brain's neurons
electricity shooting up my spine
makes me want to scream
the devil be damned
I will ride on
through the insanity
take inventory
name it
it's addiction
I'm an addict
always have been
always will be
the beast is right behind me
breathing down my back
clawing at me
temptation is a bitch
& I live it everyday
Copyright © 2017 Crimsin. All Rights Reserved
Published 12th Mar 2017
| Edited 13th Mar 2017
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Anonymous
12th Mar 2017 11:39pm
My Beautiful Brenda...you face a hard fight everyday and it is in this very strength in which you display that keep the demons behind you rather than on top...keep them chasing after you lovely one...you have the advantage...you know exactly what they are allowing you to always stay ahead of them...I love you very much. Hugs wrapped around you as I kiss you.
xoxo Taryn
xoxo Taryn
14th Mar 2017 7:37pm
thank you my love you are always a great cure for my anxiety you always calm me with your sweet spirit :) I love you so much.. xo Brenda
Anonymous
13th Mar 2017 00:27am
Keep fighting the devil down. As long as you keep fighting it can't keep you down. Great write about a very difficult and painful experience. My thoughts are with you in your struggle.
14th Mar 2017 7:40pm
thank you lovely lady I will keep fighting you encourage me to do so :) love Crim
13th Mar 2017 00:51am
The separation between you & them shows your mastery over them...you are in control & they know that & so should you....we each have demons that will finally lay us to rest when we are ready ...your friend SS
14th Mar 2017 7:41pm
13th Mar 2017 1:06am
I have a sacred chant for you. It really works. Get in touch asap.
Peace and strength to stand the course, Brenda. It will end.
Peace and strength to stand the course, Brenda. It will end.
14th Mar 2017 7:42pm
thank you lovely lady it's much appreciated I do believe it helped :) love Brenda
14th Mar 2017 7:53pm
Anonymous
13th Mar 2017 3:56am
You bring the truth pretty lady, I love your naked skin
and this>"I'm in the land of pain
anxiety is a killer
a cunt I can't live with "
Yes,so right, anxiety is the rawest cunt I know.
and this>"I'm in the land of pain
anxiety is a killer
a cunt I can't live with "
Yes,so right, anxiety is the rawest cunt I know.
14th Mar 2017 7:43pm
13th Mar 2017 6:01am
The way you express yourself leaves me
in admiration of your talents.
The emotion of it jumps right off the page,
makes my heart race as I feel the words.
Amazing, Crim...
in admiration of your talents.
The emotion of it jumps right off the page,
makes my heart race as I feel the words.
Amazing, Crim...
14th Mar 2017 7:44pm
thank you lovely Kasai for such a beautiful comment lifting my spirits.. love Crim
13th Mar 2017 6:37am
Can't stop no matter how much you want to. Plus believing and pushing forward can sometimes surprise a person 😁
Wonderful ink, friend 🤗
Wonderful ink, friend 🤗
14th Mar 2017 7:58pm
thank you Killa I will keep trying to write my anxiety out instead of drinking it away.. deeply appreciate you :) love Crim
Anonymous
13th Mar 2017 3:17pm
Ain`t life a Bitch!
And the sad things is,
you don't die.
But when you do,
it is a slow and torturous death.
But it's a good thing
we have poetry to channel
that bitch-of-a-Devil
through ...
~love to my Queen, Devlin
14th Mar 2017 7:59pm
thank you my Queen you put a huge smile on my face with your comment.. I have to write it out and not pity myself to much :) I love you! xo Brenda
13th Mar 2017 5:55pm
I have to say, sometimes, when I read your poetry, my heart grows heavy and I can almost feel the clamour, feel the struggle. I have found my struggle become easier when I consentrate on seeking personal happiness. Seems selfish at first, but for me its the only thing that works - you have to do this regardless of circumstance or other peoples wishes - those who truly love you will come with you :-)
Sending loads of ehugs and 1000 positive wishes for your well being :-)
Sending loads of ehugs and 1000 positive wishes for your well being :-)
14th Mar 2017 8:04pm
thank you David for reading me and the love sent my way only sorry to make your heart heavy at times reading me.. love Brenda
Anonymous
13th Mar 2017 7:10pm
I particularly love the no frills delivery of this one, brenda
it's one of those poems that just needs to say its say & fuck the metaphors...
... still isn't an easy read because you're 100% raw on the page & serving slices of reality more real than most comprehend.
this is compelling writing at it's finest, beautiful lady
xo
it's one of those poems that just needs to say its say & fuck the metaphors...
... still isn't an easy read because you're 100% raw on the page & serving slices of reality more real than most comprehend.
this is compelling writing at it's finest, beautiful lady
xo
14th Mar 2017 8:06pm
thank you beautiful one for feeling me in your soul and understanding the pain of anxiety.. love you! xo Brenda
13th Mar 2017 7:22pm
You nailed it with the anxiety syndrome, Crim. I've been dealing with it in one form or another my entire life, and it's been getting worse of late. I'm just sorry you're having to go through this. Excellent work.
14th Mar 2017 8:08pm
14th Mar 2017 1:42am
it's a tough fight, Crim,
your weapon is your pen;
your own poems reinforce your fortitude...
your weapon is your pen;
your own poems reinforce your fortitude...
14th Mar 2017 8:08pm
14th Mar 2017 8:40am
When my anxiety gets really bad I just close my eyes and travel back to a time I felt safe and strong. Give it a try. It won't fix it what so ever but it will give you clear direction if you look hard enough
14th Mar 2017 8:10pm
thank you so much i've heard meditation is great for anxiety I just have to practice it before it's gets too strong.. welcome to DU :) love Crim
14th Mar 2017 9:35pm
15th Mar 2017 00:44am
15th Mar 2017 5:09am
The beast that chases you also feeds your writes! A double edged sword! I know this! Stay strong Brenda!
thank you Xmar indeed it is I will remember and fight, write on :) love Brenda
17th Mar 2017 9:22pm
Brenda.. your brilliance always shines.. once again this has a very lyrical feel.. i'd love to hear your words to music.. love you!!
Dave
Dave
23rd Mar 2017 6:19am
thank you Dave my brother would love to hear what your musical mind could come up with for this write.. love you.. xo Brenda
Anonymous
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23rd Mar 2017 6:20am
my heart is sending love for you that this anxiety bitch will give us both peace.. thank you.. love Crim
