Years it has been

Years it has been since that first day
Years it has been since I first knew
It came as a shock at first,
But delight soon filled my heart

Joy soon turned to concern,
As you could not be found
I remember hearing them say “the embryo is not where it should be”
In my heart… I felt your spirit.

Years it has been since that fateful day
When those cold intruding instruments took you from me
“Your life is at stake” is what they told me
“YOUR life is at stake” was what I cried

It was only a week or two that I had known
Only 6 weeks old you were
Little heart racing at 150 beats – twice the rate of mine
My little “heart beat” had tiny buds for arms and legs

Years it has been since you left this earth
Forever you remain in my heart
I often wonder what you are doing
And frequently send butterfly hugs

I never got to feel you move inside
Or hear you take your first deep breath
I never got to hold you
Nor have our eyes meet

Years it has been
And many more to come
But know this that I don’t love you any less
Until we meet again