Nobody Knows

The winds sit still and nobody knows
the clouds gather and nothing is shown
darkness takes hold and life lets go
hiding of the moonlit show
still      nobody knows

The sun makes it up to my window sill
aimless I'm lost in another pill
gathering myself  I long to see
what has overtaken me
but nobody knows

I'm half-way to the end but I missed the start
extracting shards of failure pulling me apart
broken back and peeled
my signed surrender is sealed
still     nobody knows

Cast shadows walking the other way
escaping the light of day
covered in cloth hidden behind the sin
trapped in a game I couldn't win
but nobody knows

Against the wall erected to guard
weakened and hard
firing off  blanks
who am I to thank
and I don't really know

It's a fine line between here and gone
just a peasant and a pawn
don't let me check out now
a chalice oozing with doubt
does anyone really know