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DOLPHIN IN ME (10-11-89, San Diego, California)
staring out
at this now
calm sea
upon its dull
gray slate
i dream
of sweet
release into
gentle peace
where soon
i find myself
wondering
if a flawless
new vision
of passion
and devotion
will ever
come sailing
even keeled
effortlessly
inspired
up out of
the unseen
breathless
depths of
me again
onto the
barren beckoning
canvasses
of all these
fickle waiting
empty paper
terrains
upon which
i may release
all my futile
vanities
of self defensive
self defeative
inner fears
into their
neutral ever
yielding ears
hounded by
impatience
and my
weak kneed
lack of belief
in myself
wherein the
unseen sun
both rises
and sets
upon my
too long
hidden
historically
tainted
human dignity
as the
outer world
looks on
seeing nothing
or seeing
only this
shattered
reflective mirror
of the man
i once thought
and believed
i used
to be
was
and still am
still this
sad ocean
awaits
without judgment
so patiently
reflecting
through all
my ongoing
mistakes
leaving me
to wonder
here
if dolphins
will ever
arise
to breach
and breathe
new breath
into my ever
longing heart
of open
spirit again
here amid
so much
relentless
human waste
and countless
other forms
of disconnected
destructive
spirit
poisoning
leaving me to
wonder more
if true beauty
will ever
survive here
reborn
from a place
soul deep
within
will our eyes
minds and
our hearts
ever fully
drink in
its truth
beyond
mere dream
of its healing
light again
this is what
i last recall
thinking
when i awoke
from my sleep
late last night
just as i
had resurfaced
for yet another
fresh breath
of lifes sweet
conscious
air again
there in my
dreams
just as
here in
my life
as well
where often
it seems
and at times
i feel
i might be
part cetacean
myself
either in my
present lifes
incarnation
or some other
lifetime before
for i cant
help
but sense
feel and notice
these things
in my wild
free
untamed
day to day
lifes
ever deepening
journey
as i move
through its
continuously flowing
fluidly pulling
at times
resistant
peaceful
and turbulent
inner and outer
currents
which this virtual
boundless
vast sea
of lifes greater
collective
ongoing
mass
spiritual journey
truly is
beyond what
its presently
still delusional
human interpretations
self destructive
illusory
false story
still
so blindly
and tragically
clings to
unable to see
through or beyond
the fatal
morbidly cancerous
self serving
soul level
illness
it is
and may continue
to be
right up to
its hellish end
but hopefully
only for them
and for those
who cannot
or who refuse
to see
alone
but alas
now know
that time
draws
ever nearer
for us all
for in the
long run sum
of all truths
known
they
and we
everything
and all
are truly
one
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