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A heroic decision. Status quo bias.

Doing what your heart wants is a heroic decision.

Against all reasonable arguments, the only things in favor are an indescribable attraction to some kind of crazy scenario of actual happiness and living my true will, and a funny range of coincidences in various forms, indicating that dreams can be real and real can be untrue.

The convenience in my quiet sadness the last ten years had been exhausted.
Selling pieces of my soul to buy a comfort zone which I compromised to and adjusted
in shake of harmony or whatever I thought it was available at that time.
A sense of no day, no life is ever wasted, though.
A quest of the reasons of each cause. Guesses.
A luck of awareness of whether you are aware or not.
Many options, alternate perceptions, an endless effort to dig deeper and then escaping from that depth.
So suddenly my world as structured by my me fell apart.
Betrayal for betrayal for I betrayed my self.
I can't be sure why his cheat happened the exact same time I started questioning my whole being and beliefs.
I even thought all happened for me to realize and be pushed to my desires.
I then saw the solidarity of the synchronization in everything around me.
How I create the lives of all and how all create mine.
Never miss out the possibility I'm loosing my mind..
An awakening, they say, but nothing was in true sleep
The feeling that something was wrong
and this is not what I am supposed to live
had been following me
in every talk and every walk.
10:22 .. It's a windy, nicely odd winter morning.
I still feel incomplete and confusion tsunamis come to my judgement every once and a while
Omens point to a decision of change..
...or better, the omens shift according to my current wish or even fear, if I let it rule me
The absurd fear of change, deeply imprinted in my unconscious
fight the need to feel safe and in relative control of what may occur to me.

Status quo bias...
Vincit omnia amor
Written by personanongrata (Astral Gift)
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