Nothing is all I have become

 
I am resigned, to having no design, because I am not high right now,
So I cannot remember how I used to float inside a cloud.
But back in the day, sometimes I was up there, sometimes down;
But I could never find my way out,  
Because I only ever seemed to drown.
 
 
I wallowed in a sea of my own self-induced misery;
Life just carried me along, because I allowed it to take me.
I was trapped,
By a constant lack,
Of money or activity.
 
 
I just sat there alone, toking on the weed,
But now I have cleared my head of those times I forget.
I will not remember, because that’s just a page in my story
And the chapter about regret, I have already read.
 
 
So I will paint it black, like they said in that song;
How can I be smiling, when everything is wrong?
I am a miserable git, who couldn’t give a shit!
About a thing I could not change,
Because it will still remain the same.
 
 
So why waste my time inside a head of self-doubt?
When I could be dreaming of escaping…
One day I will find a way out.
 
 
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