Balance II

I keep questioning myself if I am awaken
the answer I often get
is "what the fuck do you mean?"
Is it acceptable to realize all your beliefs as mistaken?
Life always felt like I was in somebody else's dream

I thought I served a punishment
for a reason I've never learned
My egoistic nature said
I should be repaid
Big.
New revelations of myself are slowly discerned
I saw Nobody pointing into my soul's peak

A struggle over reasonable
A war over my faith
My thoughts transmute my liturgy
Musing and reverie
My body clock's been tranced
Tomorrow is closer
A gravity annihilator
commits genocide on his own genes
I hypnotized my energy
gave a consciousness of its own
to manifest
eternally
to help me feel I've won