Your eyes on me

 
Before my eyes, Nine Inch Nails are live;
I am alive when I hear the sounds they make.  
In your eyes, I must be despised,
For not wanting to be the same as you and not having your tastes.
 
 
My eyes fixate;
Break up all that which came before.
Your eyes, take them away;
I do not wish to be seen by a person who has never hit the floor.
 
 
Knocked out, kept down, I drown in the misery of my own mind.  
Picked up, put down, leave me alone!
I just want a way of my own to find.
 
 
Rail tracks, lead lives one way, to a place where I do not belong.  
The right track I have never been on.
I could never follow in your footsteps,
When I know that everything you think is wrong!  
 
 
I am beneath you in every way,
Apart from the heart that beats inside of me.
Mine is open to a change and my love is so real,
Whilst you are all about order and finding a way to make me kneel.
 
 
Nothing to trust inside your words;  
Pictures lost within your dreams.
All the truth you see in visions of light,
To me are but a blur.
 
 
Inside your idea of peace, I sit and scream!  
I can never write what you expect me to write.
I can never write what you would like to read.
I can never say the right thing at the right time, sigh,
Just to make you smile, because all you do is poison my heart  
And all I want to do is leave!
Fly away to a beautiful place,
With a beautiful face,
On a beautiful day;
But this is just a dream.
 
 
I have no interest in your romantic movie ideology,  
You had me at hello, so have yourself a nice day.  
All I see are trees, without their leaves;  
Snow upon a sun that has never shined down upon me.
A hopeless lack of sympathy…
A lack of anything.  
 
 
Downward Spiral, out of control,
As my mind crashes down to kneel before her feet.  
Feelings have been lost, because you took all of the love!
So now I stand here on my spot!
Refusing to move towards the one who I wish I could.  
 
 
Walk away again because I cannot be saved,
From my own way’s and my own grave.
My own pain is my only way,  
To get me through the day,
So fade away from me…
 
 
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