Confessions of a Masochist

   
she came to me one day  
the bitch  
beautiful like a girls choir  
singing Latina L'Amour  
moving her bottom  
like a metronome  
   
her breasts a cascade of kindness  
that break the hearts of men  
they die  
for those  
blouse muffins  
her smooth legs and feet  
made for sex art  
lickity splits and erotic contortions  
while her wiggly ass and tits tell you  
what heaven would be like  
hips that sway  traffic  
causing pile ups  
and fender benders  
and make good boys  
hopeful about being chosen  
perhaps anointed  
and judged worthy  
but alas    
turn good boys into  
chronic masturbate-rs  
in dim midnight closets  
or trawlling sex criminals  
   
at the very sight of her  
my soul buckled  
i wanted her  
like darkness  
needs a lantern  
like blood  
needs cells  
   
she looked at me  
languishing with tenderness  
and murder in her eyes  
it would make my cunt wet to hurt you  
she said with a soft tremor  
ill suck yours for hours  
tongue toy  
losange  
gullets prey  
girl food  
   
will you earn your suffering  
adore my goddess ass  
and lick it spic and span  
kiss my beautiful feet  
with tender devotion  
pray for cruel cunts abuse  
be consumed  
by pussies jaws  
thrill me  
love me  
flood me  
with blood  
and scum  
die for me  
my love  
   
as i looked into  
her hollowed  
desperate soul  
so eager  
and felt deeply her need  
and loved her to tears  
to broken hearts mend  
   
to struggle with  
the dark angel  
unrequited love  
to expunge  
years of vacant stares  
of nameless women  
and empty beds  
to forget foreboding  
bath cabinets bereft  
of girly things  
like  
lolly pop pink lipstick  
cherry sherbet nail polish  
lacquered hardened coats    
aerated perfumed clouds  
of vanilla candies  
and fashionable  
demonic party masks  
over black brooding mascara  
on almond eyes  
hiding hot embers  
cool and blink-less  
   
while wrenched obsessive  
for the feminine  
that drag my soul  
through long coffin  
hollow gullies  
that drive me  
to invocations  
of Hecate  
sacrificial blood rituals  
voodoo trances  
god forms  
and black art astrologers  
who have the power  
to move planets  
through space  
and change fates  
   
oh so wrong  
yet i must  
for loves sake  
say yes to her  
yes to her for pleasures sake  
even if in the end  
i am left to moan  
to howl at a blood moon  
with in the confines  
of her dark edged  
appetite  
ascending in sin  
as she fuckes me  
like she hates me  
   
yes my beloved  
to vanquish numbness  
   
she consoles  
your willingness    
excites  
i felt her adoration  
   
be brave for me  
she murmured  
sadists are cowards  
teach me surrender  
you are glorious  
in my clutches  
   
i made my self ready  
positioned my self  
as per her instructions  
face down  
legs apart  
on a bed of nails  
happy in my pit  
as she played  
a whole lotta love  
by led zeppelin  
blood swollen cock  
oozy  
for her tender kisses  
and brutal schemes  
   
the masochists tao  
   
to denigrate oneself  
to kiss your goddess feet  
to lick your perfect anus  
to adore your prim rose cunt  
to taste your lips of fire  
to tangle in your silky locks  
to see your eyes a blaze  
to drink your saliva nectar  
to eat your crumbs  
to lick your ass clean  
to be beaten  
to your satisfaction  
to drown in your breasts  
to hold you close  
to take pleasure  
in your cruelty  
heaped upon me  
to suffer for your delight  
to be  
the sacrificial lamb  
to be a victim  
in an erotic dream  
with jaws and teeth  
   
she took me inside  
smiled  like a feral  
lust twisted child  
took out a  
scalped handled knife  
brushed it across  
my tummy and balls  
terror brewed  
excitement struck  
my cock got so hard  
she grinned  
and salivated  
like a Satanic Cheshire  
in bloom  
   
she devoured cocks warm butter  
as it poured in waves  
into her black lipsticked  
pink wet mouth temple  
   
oh she said  
i like it a lot  
do you mind a small incision  
my darling  
   
mommy needs  
a little taste of hell  
   
her face shape shifted  
into a warbled shadow  
as she licked her lips  
and tickled  
her clitoris  
with gooed fingers  
   
cut me i implore  
im in the mood  
you sweet savage  
   
she opened me slow  
o o o o ooow  
ooh the sting  
don't stop i begged  
loving her  
voluptuous greed  
as she covered me  
with heavens kisses  
eyes desperate  
devouring  
drenched through vagina  
and bestowed  
upon me  
eager  licks  
that swoon  
and savage wounds  
   
she took charge  
with curvilinear cutlery  
she gave it to me hard  
oooofff  
then good again  
aaahhh  
then deep and threw  
like a spoon through Crisco  
a surgeon from hell house  
oh so fun she said  
she licked my dick  
fingered my ass  
sucked my balls  
frenetic  
then stuck me with a fork  
giggling  
not done yet she mused  
and then  
required of me  
that my tongue  
obediently pay homage  
to her naked mouth anus  
   
i was the pig for slaughter  
needles and knives  
burned nipples  
bruised cock  
a bleeding torn  
pin cushion  
eyes teared  
back arched  
torso writhing  
cherry cheeks  
blood gusher  
her nipples  
and belly butt  
soaked in my blood  
commanded me to lick  
my own pools  
of red plush  
for her amusement  
   
a couple at play  
in Satan's temple of lust  
her face turned to mischief  
in a demons trance  
her soul  
like hyenas  
and clawed weasels  
all trapped villeins  
   
im done fuckin around  
with you she quipped  
her cunt on fire  
like a burning house  
she plunged a blade deep in my gut  
her eyes wide and glaring  
like blazing head lights  
possessed by hell bats  
   
oh my goddess  
for you  
over the summit  
as i shuddered  
arching in torment  
curling into a ball  
squirming  
like a severed worm  
   
her face contorted  
with horrors fun  
her twat pored forth  
tremulous quivers  
and hells  
brimstone gasms  
ecstatic  
   
oh she drank my blood  
sucked my cock  
with kaleidoscopic tongue  
like a devils bride banshee  
licked my ass clean  
filthy bitch  
defaced me with a drooling cunt  
and brooding anus  
strangled me with nylons  
until my lips ran numb  
until my tongue dragged  
like a corpse in a car wreck  
she  whimpered and cooed  
suffocated me with her cunt ass  
   
stepped on my face  
with feet i adore  
chewed off my balls  
a black mambas kisses  
filled my mouth  
with hot rocks  
that melted my skull  
oh cry to heaven  
wheres Jesus  
as i scummed  
up-leaping  
   
the  last words  
i ever heard  
omg you sure to kick a lot  
im cu cu cu cu cu cu cumming  
for you blood boy  
dead dead dead  
floppy floppy head  
cock like cherry pie