Message to self in 2017

2016 ooh how you have come and gone with your misery, certain joys and lack of change.  How everyday you wake up and do the same thing over and over again, waste away with years and time over and over.  How everyday the impure thoughts of a mundane life lived and acted over and over.  Clearly over and over feels like something one needs to get over before they grow old and grey.

So I am greying and I have not softened, nor have I grown a liking to something, instead the later has happened.  For one, my mind is made up and I am no longer going to give my life to the God of boredom.  Nor will I continue being a redundant minion of a place that I derive no pleasure in.  I am surrounded by traitors and to those traitors I have opened my inner most placed hatred, and they in turn have broadcasted those to the world that bears ill news to progress.

Do I wish do die a boring, stressed life.  No, God please help me release myself from the clutches of this nugatory life which I seem to have accepted in my past.  What do I think will happen when I have decided to bring in change to my ooh so mundane life.  This change requires me to actually act and make sacrifices that will either cause me joy or crisis.  Though I know that, should I not make this change I will be stuck in a bottomless pit which no one would be able to pull me from.  Not even myself with my life magic of thought and power over myself.

How did I get here.  I have always thought I am destined for great things in life.  And I believe that I am still destined for those great things which I am yet to achieve.  I am not a socialite.  Do I wish do be one *rolling my eyes and thinking*.  Maybe, maybe not.

I have noted the following.  I cannot be moved, I become irate very easily, I find futile thoughts very limiting. I am judgemental of a lot of things and cannot be corrected by an invalid thinker.  With all these feelings why do I subject myself to the most painful experience known to man.  The feeling of nothingness and inconsequential lived life is feeding me negative energy which in the past I could not withstand.

To myself I say.  Stand up and dust of the mundane life, pick yourself up and jump over the feeling of nothingness.  You are born of a great lineage of people, you are gifted more than you can ever imagine. You are currently sitting on your talent and you cannot hear it because your fat bum is silencing the talent given to you.  Stop being negative about your talent and give in to the power that wants to fuel your talent.  Embrace the fact that money will never make you happy, and while sitting in the same place with the money you will never be what you born to be.  Money has never brought standing happiness to anyone while what they were doing was inadequate to the feeling.  Be happy in what you want and happiness will blossom through you.  It has taken many years to dampen your shine but the shine still exist in you.  Reach all the way down grasp it and be happy again.

Never let your happiness be determined by money, people, places or a collective. Embrace God in 2017 and your life will be changed.  Forget the past and concentrate your essence to your future.