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The disconnection

The disconnection

Where am i? Why do I feel this way? Why does everything around me seem worthless? Why do I feel worthless? Have I lost way? Am I disconnected from myself? I do not understand for I feel that Iíve went off course. Off course to what says the peculiar voice in my head. Have I become like the rest of the world? Operating like a machine?

The thought scares me so deep that I day dream being a robot running on a program build by a lower frequency being that resonates negative energy. Iím uninspired; nothing is as it is when I was visualizing myself and where I would be. I have taken the road that had led me to place that I now call hell.

The doors close and the walls move closely to each other and Iím trapped in between. The energy around me has gone from positive to negative. Entities are treating me like an outsider and yet they witness the aura that blossoms around me. I walk around space my head held high but still something is missing.

I have lost touch with the source, the higher being, and the god head that has been moving me through this life journey. The story Iím busy creating is not worth resitting. I am not happy. I wake up every morning thinking oh dear heavenly universe why do you always send me back to hell. What did I do to deserve this?

The disconnection has reached the extreme and I can no longer ignore it. The direction Iím slinging at is the wrong one. I am shooting but not at the target. The higher self has made it clear; I know what to do but the negative energy weighs heavy on me.

A sense of purpose has eluded me, before this road I was blessed spiritually and my energy levels were up. I had moved from god consciousness to just a program that will never work. Months passed by and the feeling of being disconnected remained.

The was no other way for me to move forward without interfering with the way my life was setup at that moment, so I did the one thing that everyone told me not to do; I left the place (hell) that has created this bad vibe and bad karma. The outcome of the change helped me find myself again.

Itís amazing how one can lose way but is never far disconnected from the source. The disconnection taught me many things about myself and life. Itís with the disconnection that I was able to grow mentally and spiritually towards the life I envision for myself because within negativism you can always find positivism. †
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