Namaste

I have been on this spiritual journey since I was conceived  
These last few weeks I damaged my own soul to what I thought was beyond reprieve    
Ahhhhhh...... but Mother Earth loves me and granted me a pardon    
She sat me down, lovingly caressed my cheek, listen to her wisdom, it beyond human’s measurable margin  
I was hunkered down fighting an inner war that maybe needed to be fought    
And when the spirits tender voice came a calling, I was too busy, anger and self-hate, were my drug that I sought    
I always said that when I find my man, I don’t want to control him or own him  
I wanted him and I to be free, joined at the spirit, entwined at the limbs  
But the spirits looked at my trick deck, death grip on my cards, and called bullshit  
And I must admit, I sat like a whiny toddler for two weeks, laminating that I would quite    
The first chance I got, when carressing another soul, I tried to fit him into my box  
I tried to bang down his door and fiddle with his locks  
That is not freedom    
I was not walking side by side with another spirit, I was trying to lead him    
See I was scrolling through you tube, looking to feed my hate    
When I came across a channel “Mouth of the Ape”  
I listened intently, to every word    
And Instead of hate, love crooked her finger at me, and I was lured  
Dear sir, you helped me root out one of my inner jinns  
My inner goddess, has been enlightened, this battle she wins  
So my soul honors another soul, and short experience we shared, Namaste  
I am quiet and listening    
Mother Earth she is whispering    
Her wisdom builds me, like a beautiful piece of pottery; that was just a bit of clay    
And I sit and smile, a life lesson I have learned  
I do not want to control, I want freedom with another soul, this is what I yearn  
My soul honors your soul  
Namaste