my mindddd

My mind is indecisive
I don't think it'll make up its mind
A tribute of cannibalistic
cells that eat their own kind
Rainbow colors follow a flooding
by a cataclysm of realms
My ark basements are loaded
painful memories of eons
My Self in now gazing
all the deaths of my past
Absolute nirvana is chasing
butterflies in a chasm
Like a mechanism that's broken
I return to ego-state
till reality is molten
to a conception of my low rate
Through a self interrogation
my mind answers back
glimpses of illumination
making time to loose track
Discord of the evidence given
on whether they are mine
or collected and then driven
for and by me to comply
An empathic rebel nature
as the fortunate-unfortunate one
I draw my psyche's structure
thinking process overdone
Analyzing the analysis
then deriding each term
mocking my mortalities
like a philosophic germ
Creative vagueness is humming
in a frequency near dreams
Optic views are drugged and counting
lunar horizons rest in peace