Beauty is fading from my eyes

 

I have become empty of all those feelings for love;
If this is all there is in a land without feelings,
Then why should I keep searching,
For a thing I have never really touched?
The unattainable wish has begun to disappear.
Without a hope to hold onto, my future no longer seems so clear.


That image I held inside my head for so long,
Has vanished with every spilt drop of blood,
That has fallen from my eyes.
Those tears for love’s pain,
That I had always wished to so soon be gone,
Are my only memories of that thing we all want;
But I have lost my fire, I have lost my desire and all love I now despise.


Banish this wish from the hole they call my heart.
I have no name for it, or use for it,
Since it’s needs are now fading like a dying star.
Once so noble and so bright and so strong;
Love is now an unknown beauty,
No longer moving within the void that they call my heart.

   
I can take her into my mind, but too soon she burns away like a candle;
As my love ages, it is already dying, but once it was too hot to handle.
A thing I cannot grasp, without being burnt by deceit
And then I must become wrapped up inside their minds of lies.
My eyes seem to be changing from bright blue to grey,
To match my withering mind.


Time is taking my life, one day at a time;
My destiny is approaching so quickly,
That I cannot hold onto a dream of a better beloved Amy,
Because it has been removed from my memory
And all my needs are becoming more about who I can be,
Not who I want to be.
Now the lover I used to need is always seen walking away from me.


I used to want it all, but too many times I have tried to climb that wall
And when all I need is a new way to go through an open love door,
All I am left with are my lonesome, broken, thoughtless pieces!
My shattered heart is scattered across the floor.


There is no way out of this life that I have lived;
Once upon a dream so big.
I now hide beneath my nothing, because it is all I have to give
And it is all love deserves for the way it has treated me.

   
My black hole for a soul, has no pot of gold,
At the end of my never before seen rainbow.
For I am cursed, without a vision, to be alone;
In a heart that cannot live, without a daily step into the unknown.


I need an endless set of surprises,
But my love life remains the same…divided.
When all I am in need of is a simple kiss,
I am left to imagine my closed eyelids.


There is nothing between now and then,
But the motion’s that I must go through, without.
Because I can no longer see any chance of love;
I cannot see beauty,
So I can no longer believe.
If nobody can be true to me,
Then to love I can no longer remain devout.


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