Once upon a mind

 
 
A lonely soul sleeps inside my heart.  
It has given up on trying to be my star.  
The light has dimmed; the finish has begun to become duller.  
I have never been anything other than sullen  
And now my soul is no watercolour.     
 
 
Scatter no seeds, for nothing will grow,  
Inside this black hole that I call my soul.  
I cannot take hold of a direction in which to go,  
Because I am unable to see ahead, when I am without hope.  
 
 
No more, no less;  
The same phrase repeats again.  
What more can I say when all is gone so far away?  
Out of reach, but never out of mind;  
Still it lingers at the fore front of a head without design.  
Clutter, splutter, mix me with resent;  
No chance to repent,  
No choice to have left.  
 
 
Just left behind, by a love life that has moved on to be happy  
And found itself a new home, as I lie inside my cemetery.  
Gone from this diseased soul, formed from insecurities.  
It has escaped and taken my heart with it and from me.  
Now I am soulless and never free to dream without regret.  
Continuously delirious,  
So easy to detest.  
Once upon a mind, love has exploded  
And now there is no trace left.  
 
 
No Jessica Rabbit to find,  
No saving emo.  
No happy me;  
Just where ego, I go.  
 
 
My body moves of its own accord.  
I am too bored to give it orders,  
When I am busy crawling up the wall,  
In search of just one thing that even matters!  
Life is no adventure and I am the mad hatter.  
 
 
Lost in a wonderland of my own mind’s creations.  
I fall down (a rabbit hole) and break an ankle.  
I am no longer in contention,  
To be a contender for the title of most loved.  
Just stuck in the mud with no tears left to wash it all off;  
Gone is my chosen destiny…I have given up.  
 
 
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