Reoccurrence

Desperately  
trying to
understand...
Unwarranted  
thoughts and
demands.
 
No basis
in fact
all is fiction...
Brought back
to life again
causing friction.
 
A suspicious
mind that
creates a way...
To pick at
scabbed wounds
of yesterday.
 
This continuation
of imagined
strife...
Is a reoccurring
theme within
my life.
 
My soul aches
with a want to
detach from it..
It wears and
drains precious  
life from it.
 
I want someway  
out of this
endless refrain..
To remove these
unfounded thoughts
from your brain.
 
Once again,
I ask and I plead...
What is the want?
What is the need?
 
Is there a need  
for me to repent?
For hours apart..
for time spent.
 
Me?...Ask for forgiveness
for what You did??
Leaving me all alone
while you hid.
 
If that is the want
and that is your
need...
It is the one very
need that I will  
never relieve.