Tears

Be trail & defeat. How can I compete..? Hurt and Pain. Why am I ashamed..? All I do is cry but I try. Im a afraid what will happen next. I try my best to be the best but it seem like nobody care. My heart is in knots & I'm in pain. I'm all confuse and dont know my own name. Being in pain is not what i want right now. I thought i was happy but that was a lie. I can barley hold on but i dont want to let go. I promise myself that i wont give up. The pain is deep, & I'm trying not to weep. I wanna get away & be alone. I need to find who am I. What is my purpose to be here. I know i wanna be near.. Him but somthing feel like something is between us. I wanna hold on tight & not let go so this is us til the world blow.!!!!