Unpredictable Flaw

They call me beautiful
Maybe one day
I can be a model
But there's
One thing
That I want
It infects me
Prevents me
I like it
Too much
To say
That I wouldn't not choose
To have
The want
The taboo on screen
Negative
Unwanted
To me, I live for it
For the hope
That one day
It happens to me
A secret lover
Who loves me
From afar
I want it
I want this
But I don't know where
To find it
This
Want
I want to be
Objectified
Ordered
Yet, I want
It to be
For me to be
The only one
To him
For him to only
Treat me this way
Forsaken
Mistaken
Society finds it repulsive
But I see it as impulsive

My age
Wasted
To those who need it
I like this idea
The idea of being
The object
Use me
I need it
Yet, there are boundaries
In society
That say no
Prevent it
Protections
Against them
But they do not protect
But instead
Hurt me

I like the idea of slave
Of an
Object
Me being that
I need it
Only two years
Before my age
Is wasted
To them
The ones who could use me
Like I want them to

Take advantage of me
I notice it
I see it
I love it

Whenever
Wherever
I try to find
Someone to run off with
Someone who society
Finds sick
To take me
Hide me
Wherever
Do whatever
With me
Whenever
I'll pretend
To not like it
If they want me to

Some day
Hopefully
The blonde
Blue eyed
Societal
"Beauty"
Can have its
Dark
Flawed
Hidden
Want
Become reality