To Feel

I’d rather feel sad than feel nothing
I can deal with a broken heart, but not a dead one
I will survive the pain, but not the numbness
I need that passion
Whether it’s good or bad
If it’s sorrow or joy
That matters only somewhat
I need that sign
To tell me I’m alive
I need to feel a rush of something
Anger, crushing pain, strength
Just something
To feel like a burnt out candle
Like a body without a soul
Like a fallen dead leaf
That is the only thing in the world that I can’t feel
Because it doesn’t
Feel.