The Devil's Grip

Smeared black, swollen eyes
the usual result from last night's cries
Jolting up, feeling tightness in my chest
can't take it anymore, I need to rest
They don't believe me, say it's all in my head
sometimes I think I'd be better off dead

Why is it, I'm unable to catch my breath?
no way to escape, feels much worse than death!
For death would be painless, and all too easy
So stay here I must
where stupid souls, fail to appease me

The only escape is in my dreams
stuck in hell
forever cursed, yes it seems
People say 'cheer up' or 'never say never'
how the ignorant bastards live
Shut up, fuck you or whatever!

That could very well be, the pessimist in me
because I know the devil, has got a firm hold of me
My body is wrapped so very very tightly
how can I possibly think, to try to live brightly?
I know it's my fault, I know it's all me
I also know he'll never let me free...