Dead sex

There I lay
Thoughts far from at bay
Ignore him, I silently told myself
Don't dare look his way
Lying on my front
I pressed my face into the pillow
Lying there naked
Ass on show
He whispered my name
I refused to reply
It's always the same
How could he lie
My body lay paralysed
trapped inside my own mind
I love him, I hate him
I wish he were more kind
I knew his intentions
I knew them very well
He lifted my hips, parted my legs
It was all he knew how
He slowly pushed inside me awaiting a reaction
Truth is it was a welcome distraction
I wouldn't say yes
But I wouldn't say no
Instead I just lay there
And took the first blow
I felt vunerable and bare
But angry as I was
My vagina didn't care
I was already wet
He continued to thrust
but I refused to react
Dead there I lay
It was just a big act
How could he, I'm so mad at him
Keep my thoughts at bay
This is where I want him to stay
Inside me he continued to thrust
This time
Deeper
Harder
Faster
Wetter
Fuck this feels hot
I wanted to meet his thrust
Concentrate girl, Don't lose the plot
It felt good it felt great
I had nothing left but lust
But I would not let him know
Keep very still I must