I try so hard.

I try to push it down
To the ground,
Just for now.
Just until I can handle it
Just until always.

It's so hard
So hard to be away
I see you in everything
I feel you ever so close to my heart
It tears me apart
I want you here
I want you near
I want you next to me.

I want you always
I want you forever

It hurts when you're gone
It hurts mentally
It hurts physically
So I try not to think
I try not to contemplate
I try to get by...
But it is so hard.
So hard.
Everything makes me think of you
I cannot stand to be separate
I need you here.
Here with me.
Now....