Arsenal Of Addictions

The afflictions behind all my addictions,
Force me out of the reality I've created.
Unable to be in control of my emotions,
Reminds me of the life I've always hated.

Desperation leads me through madness,
I can't seem to get a grip upon this reality,
While high I lay dormant while still in torment,
I hate my fucking life for its filled with humility.

My aggressions are fueled by lies and deception,
Everybody wants control of my every decisions,
Why can't anyone leave me to my own burdens?
I fucked my own life up with my arsenal of addictions.

As I lay here with both my wrists slit I ponder death,
I'm ready to say goodbye to all who've judged me,
My choices were made alone so let me die all alone,
I hate myself and this is how the end's going to be.