the swift

It's been some time I've been feeling weird
I can't take it anymore
The guilt, the pain, the hate, the fears
have filled us to the core
Repetitive "shows" inside the mind
The monolog of a freak
Manipulative tricks to pity yourself
and be attached to shit
While fearful days embody your being
and navigate your way
Neurotic nights and times you obsess
in sepsis and decay
But killing ego is different
from shifting your beliefs
It requires answers, taking risks
and erasing the "what if"s

So I felt a call, a call from both
within and outside
Crying from empathy; hyper-over-sensitive
quests that had been denied
A sudden shift of my way of thinking
and so the way I go
A subconscious but real realization
that I am my own foe
It seems my angel had no time to loose
and threw me a little thought
" I'm not the only one waking up
 in this fucked up world"