Heroin (Upon reading Diary of A Drug Fiend)

I remember I found Diary of a Drug Fiend in a pile of used books.  
Just intermixed. I was going through heroin withdrawal and this book presented itself to me. I`ve found the book a cathartic  tool for me during my abstinence. The book does a job of stripping away all glamour with drug addiction. There is no glamour in it. Rather the power comes from infuriating those who cannot do what you do and judge you for it. But lest you fall to your own standard. For ones standard set for himself is the only standard to be met at all.  
 
Opium has been like an insistent lover. From the moment it entered my life 5 years ago (Has it been so long!) I`ve felt a deepening of my soul and my awareness of the universe. I`ve felt hate, enlightenment, depression, joy and nothing at all. Rather than the constant torrent of life one lives without Opium, regular and elongated absence from dope and semi regular indulgence has been like a fathers teaching tool. Unforgiving to stupidity, but life changing and illuminating if balanced properly. The key is to control oneself.  
 
I`ve never been an injector, and I believe strongly in the will of a person to control their own lives. Do what thou wilt. If you don`t wish to see yourself a junkie then simply STOP. Nothing more, and if you want heroin or cocaine or anything, then take it. But when you feel yourself numb and craving, the first step is to stop. Stop until you`ve regained your happiness. Live life adjacent to it, not absent nor at the center of your life. Use your will to control yourself.