Hustled to hustle

You never really know what you got until it's long gone
Some even find themselves singing the same damn song
There's a dark time in my life I repeatedly ride
It's nothing I'm proud of so I conceal it and hide

I wish this was a metaphor with field of flowers, bitches and riches
But I stride with a wife through meadows of sugar rocks and snow covered beaches
I would creep and crawl sneaking through the shadows while she's at home sleeping
Swimming in an ocean soaked in honey dew peaches

It's a shame when the games end in the seasons by treason
The hustle clouded every decision I just wanted to please them
The reality I coped consuming coke my funds quickly depleted
It's cold outside with snow especially when your defeated

To tell the truth I lost you but it was a conscious decision
I wanted to be better than my father and his addiction
Spending every night with the white bitch and committed
I never banged but I would slang anything for the fixing
With all the cash the herb pulled in I could have made a good living
But every green bill rolled for the scene spills on counters in bathrooms and kitchens

Like a play without the sun with the sky clouded and grey
Who's to say it wasn't planned or written as a lesson to display
If so then I suppose the ink is white like the page and forced to make change

I would find myself home alone with all the cash I had blown
tethered to a substance like a noose I had sewn
Soon I was hitting it to the point of abuse
Faded daily dehydrated my hands shaking became a fiend with no clue
So I would use and abuse getting geeked like a freak
Frequently I'd wash the blood down kitchen sinks
Bloody noses never knowing how close overdose was to the peak
Laying naked on the bed just wishing to die
My heart racing to the pace of my mind
Running thoughts of what I lost and wondering why?

Cocaine can be fun but it ain't no game
Octane forced on the receptors inside of your brain
If your weak or seek it to help sooth emotional pain
Truth is most accept it with no problem some live by the name
So it's hard to get away when your slowly consumed and insane

This path is dark and dangerous so watch your back
Most ignorant of people robbed by heated dealers who pack
It's all around the world some payed to say it in popular tracks
On the streets most of these tweekers started here matter a fact
The real dealers don't even use it they're just collecting them racks.