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since my new philosophy on life                
I've had lots of great experiences;                
learning the importance of being kind                
and having love for all living things                
on a deeper level is a true gift...                
               
and even though I was told I would                
feel more alienated and different                
from a large portion of society                
which is something I'm used to anyway                
I'm finding it more difficult to                
deal with than ever...                
               
I had already lead a life where          
following social convention wasn't          
for me, but this is more extreme          
it's even harder to communicate with          
everyday people and act normal in social          
settings, I say too much, something weird          
or nothing at all in order to avoid the previous...          
         
I've always been an alpha male with          
erratic squirrel-like tendencies, topped off          
with a twisted sense of humor drier than          
the Moon and an axe murderer resting          
face, so its never been easy to completely          
be myself with new people until we've known          
each other long enough where touching their          
ass is okay; you can touch my ass from day        
one, I'm down with that...              
               
strangely enough, understanding ones energy
and how to project it has made all of this more
complicated, this is my new struggle; I'm high
frequency and it's too much for most people to
take in even though I feel like I speak in very
simple terms, I may as well be rambling on in a
foreign language even I don't understand, which
is actually kind of normal for me to be honest, but
that's a different story all together, hah...            
               
I know I'll find my way, I guess I'm just sad                
today as I write these words and needed to tell                
someone, so thanks for listening...                
               
-ed