If I made you wait, would you?

I will never see myself becoming the man you hoped I would be.
I found the torn pieces of my ego in the trash last night.
As I sat to stitch it back together I heard you crying.
I tore it up again and locked myself out.
I couldn’t hear you anymore.

I don’t know if I’m right for this.
I forgot to unpack my emotions today.
I wasn’t yours when I returned, nor was anyone mine.
I haven’t heard you say my name in months.
I was overconfident.

I lose everything I desire.
I meant to tell you I love you.
I was incapable of repairing my kindness, nor you, your anger.
We held each other for a lifetime when the wall came down.
I hope you’ll still be there.