I'm Still A Man

There's this thing
called elation
I wait for
in frustration
I sit here
and I look at it
I fear
not being part of it
it's clear
although it can't be seen
it's dirty but I keep it clean
what I am
Is all I cannot be
you misunderstand
my point , my plan
if things don't work
I'm still a man
I do the best
with all I have  
I have this zest
and yes I'm mad
but I through this
am not so bad
you are the bliss
I never had
as I confess
to this it's sad .

There is a time
in floatation
that's right
we boarded a train
at a station one night
and never again
can I see another light
you screwed up my brain
and made my thoughts tight
I love the insane
way you brought out
all bright .

My mental images
they gather around
looking for the pictures
to add to your sound
I miss you so much
I want to break down
I wish I could touch
I search through my memory dust
just hoping that I can so clutch
the past you left around  .

I look through the air
to see
I can't
but you're there
with me  
so far
to the extremity
don't bar
please , your feelings to me .