Get Lucid

I wish I could apologize
For all the shit I've done
But I ain't done nothing wrong,
I just did nothing at all
Just like five years ago
So many times, I let go
When all I had to do
Was grab your face and kiss you,
All I did was chicken out, yo
I always say that I'll never give up
But what exactly could I give up on ?
Why do I always have to act like a pup
When decisions come charging at me head on ?
Doin' nothin' never givin' up on it,
Feelin' like I'm dreamin' I ain't got no control
Over my emotions my actions it's like I'm always on tilt
I gotta get lucid, spin around, think hard and make the call
I know what you've seen in me
I know why you can't trust me
To be here with you, for you, forever
It's cause I'm nothing more than a dreamer
A wanker, just sittin' around
In a room full of shit lyin' around
You made me dream
You made me read
You made me love
You made me live
And what did I do for you ? Nothin'
I just thought, I'd make you happy
I just thought I'd make you laugh,
I just thought I'd make you feel,
I just thought I'd make you chill,
I thought, that's all we need, cause life's always been so rough
But I get it now that's not enough
I used to think
I could be your safe haven when the world gets ugly
But I was just a craven, all I knew was how to flee
If I never stand up I can never fall down
That's how I used to think but that won't get me no crown
Not that I want one, no I don't wanna be king
The only thing I want is to get back that feeling
That power I felt, like I could do anything
That joy of knowing I was at the right place
That utter freedom, like I could be any fucking where
As long as I could see your face.

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