in my dreams

you shout and swear
you knock me down and scream
you tell me all the things i did
and everything that's wrong
with me
 
you sneer and show your hate
you let me have all of your pain  
you laugh  
while my chest opens up
like a sinkhole
 
but when i wake up you're not here
and you are patient and firm
collapse my emotion with a cold border control
of stone security
which i do not have the papers to pass
 
i want to break it  
i want to build a door
anything to let me over
but you are  
once again so sure
 
and i am no one