Ruining Me

The emptiness, it is all consuming
And eating me up on the inside.
You filled me up, but you were ruining

Me for others to follow. You always eyed
Me from afar, even when you are never around.
I thought that I would continue to glide

Through life without you, but the wound
Refused to close and heal. You left it gaping
Open and I fell back to the ground.

I am lifting myself up while preparing and arming
Myself to face this mess that you left behind
Face on. This battle is mine to face as the king

And queen, which is not you. I am no longer blind
To the things you did or did not do.
How I long to be loved, adored, and pined

After like a lovesick fool. I want the morning dew
To come and get rid of the fire burning in
My heart. I am hoping that the zoo
  
That you have brought will settle the grin
Across my face. I wanted nothing more than to smile
For the rest of my life, but you have me living in sin.

All I wanted to do was move on, but all the while
You are still on my mind and you will
Not leave. I am trying to keep the vile

From rising up. You had your fill
Of me and you tossed me away just like you
Said you would never do. You left me numb and dull

Like I know that you would eventually do
In the end. Why would you give me so much pain?
I know that you did not mean to

Do that to me, but you drove me insane
Even after you were gone.
All I could do was feel the rain

With everything else. I do not want to be the pawn
In your game anymore. I want to be the knight,
The castle, and anything to get me into a new dawn

Of a fresh day. I am finished with this fight.
I want nothing to do with it anymore.
I would rather face the lights that are bright.