Whatever

I smoke until I feel pretty
I drink until I feel numb
I fuck until I feel empty
I over-think until I feel dumb

Out with the out
And in with the in
Endings are beginnings;
Beginnings of the end
There’s too much in the sober
There’s only escape in sin

Kill me however you need to
Pretend I was never here
Peel your smile from my eyes
Scrape your laughter from my ears
Dump me crumpled in the darkness
Leave me cowering with my fears

Maybe you felt you had to
Because you got sucked back in
I guess it doesn’t matter why
I’ve lost a lover and a friend

And I’ve been falling ever since.