Being Enough of a Woman

Fighting back the tears,
I know that I should not
Be doing this anymore.
To you I am just throwing
In the towel and calling it
Quits, but to me I have tried
For days, for months, and for
Years to keep fighting
Without success. I am tired
Of the endless battles
And words thrown at me
Like I am just supposed to
Take it all. To you I am too
Much of a woman who
Cries and sobs all the time.
You do not know how much
Effort it takes to not yell
And scream simply because
You do not understand.
You will not understand me
Now and you certainly will
Not understand me in
The future. You will never
Speak for me on my behalf.