stress level four

Events that should cause no alarm
cause butterflies in stomach
and a fuzz in the brain
where goes the calm?

Having anger without a cause,
being on a knife edge without a knife
and sounds that echo like a chasm
indistinguishable from noise.

Don't know whether to cry or scream
and have tears that never wet the skin,
a heart as dry as the driest desert
and I still don't know what you mean.

My sight is dark as looking at the sun,
what disease was it?; the result is the same
the candle was blown out
where did I lose my special one!