Running in trembles of lost hope

Burning trembles of lost hope.
I fooled myself again. Running from myself. So afraid.
Shadows marking my face.
The trace of my steps lingering on me like a prey. Mistakes and dark alleyways.
I just want normality. Freedom.
I just want to be safe.
Like a ugly duck seeking solitude. In nothingness. Just a blank cover.
No longer be able to recover.
What do I do ... we're do I go ...
Who can understand ...
The head fuck I become to be. Running from myself harming those around me. They won't ever understand I'm just a grain of sand.
Bury thy head in my hands.
Take me to my death ... or a eternal peaceful room. Away from life tormenting reality.
They attack attack attack me.