-going the distance

 
i find myself at peace  
walking in reverie as if the  
warmth of these summer winds  
carry a voice in the distance  
which bares you name  
 
the faster I walk the more it seems  
like it's getting further and further away;  
my heart grows a pain I can't ignore  
so I sit on the sidewalk and stare at a wall  
as if there was a window with a view  
and tell myself lies  
 
about how you're not who I think you are  
how a part of me hasn't died inside every  
single day since I crossed some intangible  
line where I still sit and try to forget the sound  
of your voice and the beautiful colors I witnessed  
for the brief moment I was exposed to your soul  
 
I'm tired and this recurring nightmare is  
getting old, I can't sleep comfortably with the  
knowledge that you exist and I've somehow  
scared you away for reasons unknown to me  
or the stars I see burning bright in the distance  
which bare your name...

-ed