In My Feelings.

I've been thinking of everything I've seen
It's like my life has been one big dream
Sometimes I pretend like it wasn't real
Maybe i just need time to heal
I've thought of all the sadness I have brought
All the horrible things I did
Trying not to get caught
For so long my demons have been trying to feed
All along making my heart bleed
Everyday i was chasing that pill
Always looking for a thrill.
What has my life become?
What have i been running from?
I want to go back to where i was before
When life everyday wasn't a chore
As bad as I want to get away
My demons entice me to stay and play
And every night i lie in bed and cry
Patiently waiting to die
Maybe in my next life I pray
I won't be living this way.