Masochistic Masculinity

Im stricken with sickness when  I hear your name
The picture of a monster enters my mental frame
The thought of your presence damn near drives me insane
My stomach is so full of knots
The bitter acid settles upon my tongue
I feel like my karma had finally begun
In the beginning you were my most beloved one
But somewhere thru the years, I forgot
Stay true to myself, I hate that I let you in
For you corrupted my mind, you stole my innocence
You played your mind games, I almost let you win
But now I have to dig deeper than deep
You broke down my goddamned soul
To you, I relinquished all self control
You were on a sadistic roll
You blatantly shattered me
And now, in my life, you're the heaviest of weights
And you refuse to leave, you're hell-bent that you'll stay
I feel like I'll never get to reach the day
Where I get my life back full of ease
Blinded me with a façade, but you're the master of hell
I regret the time I took to know you this well
But I'm done with the games, no longer under your spell
I beg of you, please bow out gracefully