Maybe

Maybe it's not that I have nothing to say to you,
Maybe what I have to say there's no telling what it could do,
Maybe it's because if you were to respond I'd have no idea what's true,
Maybe it's cause it seems like every time I open my mouth my words always get twisted,
Maybe I should just be straightforward now,
Maybe it's cause every time I see you all I see is the pain you caused,
Maybe it's cause every word out of my mouth burns like napalm,
Maybe it's cause you lit my soul on fire and now these words are just the agonized screams of an inferno just trying to burn out,
Maybe it's the way that your friends STILL think that this is about sex like I was just another thirsty fuckboy who wanted to hit it and quit it,
Maybe it's the way you made the school board think I was a dangerous stalker,
Maybe it's the way you seemed so sorry in those love notes you left in my locker,
Maybe it's the way I let my love for you resurrect like a Phoenix when both knew it should've stayed ashes,
Maybe it's the way I rode my bike to The next town at midnight just to see you and you met me half way and said things making me think that you were willing to meet me half way,
Maybe it's the way you said "maybe in another life" before you went away to college like this life that I would have given for you wasn't good enough,
Maybe it's because if I hear "I'm sorry, I love you but I could never love you the way
you want me to" again my heart may literally stop,
Maybe it's because my feelings only ever got the response "I want to love you but you make it too difficult",
Maybe it's the way my intentions and words get twisted,
Maybe I had to write this because my soul is in knots and I can't write anything else until I get all this bitterness and confusion out of my head,
Maybe there shouldn't be so many maybes with love,
Maybe I don't know what love is anymore,
Maybe that's more my fault then yours for putting up with the abuse,
I'm not trying to make up an excuse,
All I'm saying is now I know,
There is no maybe we should've just left it at hello.