Pulling Out Veins

It starts with this
A knife is used
To create a gash
Then it is me
Riping out my veins
Pulling and ripping out
The veins that are
Aching, hurting inside me
As crimson blood sprays
All over my room
I cry with relief
Then I wake up
My tear stained pillow
Stuck to my face
The nightmares grow worse
I can't get away
Biting my lip bloody
Will have to do
For awhile, at least