I need the father you proclaim to be

Certain ppl I need to say they proud of me
I need that so I can believe in me
Because right now I have so much going good in my life
But this feeling won't allow me to see it
Why can't you just come to me
And say that you need me
Because when I needed you
You wasn't there for me
I needed you to show me how to be a better man
Picking up the scattered pieces of a man
That I long to be whole
I was a son to you
Why you couldn't be a father
Who knows
These are answers that I need
So I can see this greatness in me
A certain person I need to say that they are proud of me
But his prides to great
So I know it will never be said to me
I need the father that you proclaimed to be