R.I.P Lolly x

Lolly
I wish I could call,
Speak to you one last time
But I can't..

Seems like an eternity
Since I Listened  to your voice..
Your smile lit up my heart,
Your voice on the phone,
Even tho we were apart,
It brightened my life..
You were an angel,

An angel Fighting oh so many demons,
I don't know what happened,
I thought you were stronger..
Are friendship died to soon,
It deserved to last longer..
But I guess they broke you..

I tried to help
If I only I knew
I would have tried harder
But I was fighting my own shit too..
I wasn't strong enough for both of us..

I wanna hold you so tight,
Tell you everything will be ok,
Be there with you to face your fears,
Share your pain,
Wipe your tears..
But
But I know I can't..

We should have faced your pain together,
I should have been there by your side,
Reading your messages
Now pulls at my heart,
They cut me inside..
They hurt..
Boy they hurt..

I can only hope and prey,
That the angels who came down and took you away..
Vanquished your demons..
Took away your pain,
Making that beautiful face smile again..
Why Lolly..
Why...
I guess it's one question nobody will ever know..
How your only choice was to leave the people who love you,
Turn and go...
I can't believe you went through with it..

I still look at your photos,
And your gorgeous little boy,
How you could deprive
Your one and only
Pride and joy
Of knowing ...

what a wonderful human you were..
You are...

And I'll never forget you